Whew, I feel tired. I haven't been sleeping so well lately, but I think I'm just winding down from all that stress. I'm being very serious about relaxing until I feel good again. School really made working on my book difficult and, right now, it's the most important thing I'm doing with myself. School and work just don't cut it, so I'm going to take some time off of study, find a less stressful job (I am thinking I'd like to work at Subway or some kind of coffee shop) and get the damn thing finished.
Related to that, I was chatting with a friend about the retail franchise she owns. Would I make a good retail manager? Probably not! It doesn't help that the company is in Canada. Why oh why does that country hold such a power over me? I've never even BEEN there.
Anyway, that all explains why I am here at 3:00 AM trying to decide how much medical work you need to do to stem the bleeding from a severed hand as compared to a severed arm and listening to Meshuggah when I should be sleeping. It doesn't help that there's a fully-loaded Nintendo DS next to me, staring down its Yoshi's Island 2 filled barrel at me. Still, I will perservere, because it is my nature to carry these things to their conclusion, regardless of what that is. When the book is done I think I'll buy a few thousand dollars worth of shares on Firestorm Ink and see if I can't start a second book. I've got a lot of material in my head, that's for sure.
I've gotten some work done, but I can feel my creativity and sanity (lol) coming back to me, so I need to work out where to direct my energies. Do people want me to write more of my zombie story? I'd be happy to continue it if I'm assured someone out there is enjoying it. Am I fishing for compliments? Think of it more as fishing for momentum. The reason I'm still working on the Awesome System is because every time someone says, "You mean I get to roll ALL THESE DICE? And... And they ADD?" my heart flutters.
Oh, not to mention the fame and wealth (hahaha) and con circuitry that will follow. I'll go to an american con when there's a panel already waiting for me, how's that sound?